Day 162

Day 162

Keep calm, allow yourself to destress when you need to, feel the laughter escape you and take everything in. Stress and finals suck, but when an evening comes along to make it such less, roll with it.

 

I definitely need to review more before my final tomorrow morning, and that is okay, but for now I will sleep. Woo!

Day 161

Day 161

I wanted to write a bit about seizing opportunities. When I got to college, I decided I wanted to be social, make friends, join clubs, and take advantage of any opportunity that came my way. I picked up odd jobs and threw myself into different hobbies or groups in order to figure out what I liked and build my resume. I knew that I wanted to get as much experience as I could while I was here.

Fast forward to senior year, and I still have that same mentality. I start a new internship in a little over a week, I am interviewing for post-grad jobs while finishing winter quarter, I am saving up my money so I can take myself on an amazing Disney World vacation with my boyfriend, and I am working a few hours a week as a writer in order to get the most that my minor has to offer. I am trying my best and hardest in order to kick butt so that I can be happy and succeed, both now and in the future.

There is a lot of value to saying no. I say no to going out on the weekends when I know I want to be home, to overcommitting myself to the newspaper I worked for last year, to working more than a few days a week, and (next quarter) to Friday classes. Saying no is completely and totally okay.  But it is also so amazing to say yes as often as you want to, because it means taking a chance on something that may or may not work out. I have learned (and I am still learning) to trust the process, enjoy the ride, and seize it all.

Day 159

Day 159

I come on here to talk about this topic quite a bit, but the law of attraction is so completely real. You get what you give; what you want will come to you; positive creates positive.

 

(I have to sleep now but this is what is on my mind as I study for finals, write papers, finish my thesis, and apply for jobs)

Day 158

Day 158

Totally in the library right now and super tired, but I wanted to hop on here and do a quick little post. I was pretty disappointed about getting a rejection email today, but soon later I received a pretty encouraging response about a different opportunity, so here’s hoping that something works out. I may not get what I was hoping for, but the real world after graduation is all about getting your foot in the door. And as Chris said, I need to keep throwing my resume to the wind until someone catches it.

Day 157

Day 157

After doing so much homework and studying yesterday, and then going out to dinner and coming home, I started to feel really overwhelmed.

I felt lost, scared, and pretty nervous about everything I have to do this week. It is pretty nerve-racking to know that everything is coming up so quickly—and finals are practically here!

But then Chris told me to sleep it off and begin fresh this morning. We are going to the library today and I will make an effort to be so productive but also to make sure I relax. And I think that is so important! Which is why today I am grateful for sleep. I think that a good night’s rest can cure almost anything I am feeling or thinking or nervous about. It doesn’t erase everything I have going through my head, but is definitely helps minimize it all and makes it seem less overwhelming. Maybe now I am just “whelmed.”

 

Day 156

Day 156

I am overcome with joy right now because I FINISHED a draft of my thesis! Now for the next two weeks I can focus on polishing it, perfecting it, and making sure it is the absolute best it can possibly be before I turn it in. I am so confident right now and I feel so much better than I did a week ago. I know that I will only feel even better once I actually turn it in, knowing it is perfect! I am so happy (still stressed, but happy).

Day 155

Day 155

I have truly learned how to prioritize in college. It took a while, but eventually I figured out how I work best, how I plan best, and how I can get the most out of a week’s worth of homework and studying.

When taking upwards of 14 units per quarter, life can get pretty busy and studying can be very daunting. It is so much easier to forget about work and even stress about it than to actually buckle down and get it done. But I know that by focusing, making to-do lists constantly,  and refusing to stay down on myself for too long, I can always end up doing well in school.

I am going to miss college…but I am definitely not going to miss the stress of it all. Still, there is something so rewarding about checking off things on my list one by one until the quarter is over and I finally have a real break—one where I don’t have to worry about any homework whatsoever. Life is already good, always, but it will be even better in a few weeks.

Day 154

Day 154

Finals are stressful, so rather than write about that, I am going to simply take a moment to appreciate the people I have met over the past four years here at my school.

I think that I connect way more with people here than I ever did in my hometown, and I think that is because here I have more of a choice of who to be friends with. In college I really figured out who I am and who I am not, and I am constantly growing and changing way more that I feel that I did back in high school. I have had to mature way more here, and with that comes different tastes in friends and the people I interact with.

It is so great that I have been able to find people who I feel I mesh with well and who I can hang out with when I want to and stay home when I want some space. I love my friends here! And I will miss them after graduation but that only makes me appreciate them even more now.

Day 153

Day 153

This week is the beginning of finals stress. There is just so much going on in all of our lives that it is becoming so draining. Sleep is not taking priority and there is just so much to do. But through it all, I am grateful for Chris. It is awesome because we can be there for each other all the time: we can both be stressed, but if one of us is more on edge or needs extra patience, the other will take care and be extra kind and giving. I love that.

I am also so happy that I went to the library and met up with Sabrina and Wanying this evening. They already had a table so I was able to arrive at 7 and immediately start working. My thesis is an absolute monster but I got some of it done and feel good about what I did tonight. And I planned out my tasks for the rest of the week. Hooray!

Super stressed about exams and papers and my thesis…not to mention still thinking about post-grad jobs and trying my best to make sure I am consistently sending in apps and my resume. Send some good vibes and happy thoughts my way! I am doing that for everyone reading this. ❤